I'm auditioning tonite for a local staged reading. I have been on a much needed break since the end of October and it has felt incredible to take a time out and recharge. I had basically done one show after the next since January 2016. I was physically, mentally, and spiritually exhausted. I love acting and writing and making things, and because I loved them so much, I had to take a break from them. That's the cycle of creativity after all: fill your well, make something, share that something, go back into your creative cocoon and recharge. Repeat.
But I finally feel ready to peek out a little more and try a bit of performing again. I am not ready for another full production, but when I saw this staged reading with only a couple performances and just two or three rehearsals, I thought: perfect. It's not all or nothing, after all. Six week full production schedule or nothing at all? Sometimes, it's a creative compromise. I'm ready to dip my toes back in.
I often have to call myself out on this all or nothing attitude when I am working on an independent creative project. I have been working on a creative manifesto of sorts for over two years now, and can't quite see the finish line yet. Part of my issue is that I have wanted to be able to quit all the other distractions that are keeping me from writing all day, every day. Life just doesn't work that way for most of us. So my solution has been not to work on the book at all. All or nothing.
This morning I woke up at 5:30 am, completely by accident. I decided to write 1000 words for my book. I couldn't spend the day at home writing, but I could at least set the timer for 30 minutes and do a little.
A little versus a lot.
Something versus nothing.
Gosh, this is hard for me. But if it's the way to keep going forward, even one baby step at a time, then I have to be willing to be a creative toddler for a bit. Step, step, fall. Tantrum! Step, crawl, sit. Lay on the floor for a while. Sleep. Head up. Step.
Steal some time for you today. Set a time for 30 minutes. If you don't have that much time, set it for 10 minutes. Don't look at your phone, don't get up for a snack. Just sit there and do your work. See how it feels. See what happens.
Happy Tuesday, Everyone! And never underestimate the power of What About Bob? to remind you how important baby steps can be :)